Photofreak Photography: Shameless Plug Time

Recently I began working on the other end of the lens and staging my return to work as a model.  This has been rough at times and while I miss the thin body I had in college, I am getting more comfortable day by day.  In the works are at least two more shoots with other local photographers, but I wanted to share a few favorites from my first time back in the role of model. 

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We're Back

After an impromptu vacation from being a responsible adult while we had family medical needs, I am back now, and ready to apologize for my disappearance with the sharing of some great things.  Namely, images from training my apprentice today.

Staging a Coup

My two closest model friends are helping me stage a coup d'état at the end of this month.  Yes, I'll be going back to the lingerie and fashion modeling world to see what comes of this misadventure.

Both are models I have photographed recently and have known me longer than my husband. I believe they have also both seen my old portfolio and know how much I loved to model in the freedom of my unattached college years. At the time I was heavy into the goth scene and took modeling jobs for money to keep feeding myself and buying books. Working and taking a full time course load for a double major in college was fulfilling but modeling was an adventure.

I'm thinking seriously that I might be too old to get much out of it. I'm closing in on thirty and thinking about a second pregnancy once we have a plan worked out for health care and savings. Neither of those is highly conducive to a modeling career. I'm not working a 9-5 day job at the moment and my photography for the year is pretty much set at a plateau based on the remaining weeks to book until the rush of 2014 weddings begin. Income would be wonderful, but my husband has his limits on what he is comfortable with me doing, leaving many of the better paying jobs out of bounds because they require me to be very exposed and I'm not going to push the limits set with my husband.

I'm actually happy that he is not fond of sharing my body, even if only through pixels on a computer. He has no problem that I spend my days with women in lingerie or less, but I'm not the kind of person to go about in less than a scoop necked shirt over a camisole and jeans even when I'm just working around the house.  The idea of posing in something I only wear for him is thrilling and horrifying all at once.

I have no idea where this will go, but I hope I'm not too old to make the journey.

Blue Haired Lady

One of my favorite models came by for a visit the other day to show off her new hair color.  We took a few shots to update her portfolio and while I'm not even close to finished with editing, I love this new look on her.

Big Beautiful Boudoir

After unplanned car repairs ruined our savings for this weekend's trip to the fairy festival, I dusted myself off and gotten right back to taking a shoot and keeping focused on the fact that there is so much I could/should be celebrating. 

A few weeks ago I shared an image and quote from a young woman named Tanya.  She's a beautiful woman and was happy to share her feelings on why boudoir can be so positive for women to try.  Today we had the second have of our shoot, and a good laugh at the long process of me lacing and clipping her into a full boned corset.

Here's a look at this pretty girl and some highlights from her last two shoots.

The Busy Season

Wedding season is a wonderful time of year.  I honestly love getting to be a tiny part in the memories of a lovely day.  My time behind the camera is a reward for all the hard work I do on week days and all the hours of editing that it can take later.

It looks like August to September has been a slow month for wedding bookings, so I'll be offering more deals around that time for couples that need to book and any brides that would like to try boudoir.  Until then, I think I'm going to do some new floral photography when I don't have weddings to test out color works too.  Between weddings, wings, and flowers, I think this blog is beginning to look decidedly girlish.

Working Poor Wedding Planning

With unemployment higher than ever and weddings becoming more extravagant with every celebrity under the sun looking to show off for the paparazzi, planning a wedding has become a dream many couples simply cannot afford.  Fresh out of college and struggling just to feed themselves on minimum wage, often a bride and groom can no longer fall back on parents either.  Wedding loans and DIY can go a long way in stretching a budget, but not everyone can handle the idea of an intimate gathering or elopement.

I decided recently that I am uncomfortable with how so many photographers turn down elopements or low budget events and flat ignore or insult the needs of a couple strapped for cash.  It is true that albums are expensive to order and my time is indeed valuable.  But weddings are often the one time where getting to be photographed is not faced with dread.  There is so much value already placed on the bride being beautiful, and this means those photos framed and displayed for guests will mean so much more to the couple.

Being on a budget does not mean a couple expects lower quality images.  The comments about "getting what you pay for" with photographers should not have to mean blurry or poorly white-balanced snapshots from a camera phone or point-and-shoot pocket camera.  Rather, a groom should look just as dapper in $600 photography as they would at $6000; and digital copy should be the norm, not the exception.

To fix the problem of prices, I have made a new rule for my business plan.  I will never quote any couple a package price exceeding $2000.  I begin all wedding packages at $500, hourly shooting at $75, and boudoir or engagement sessions at $125.  Digital copy is included with every booking and extra copies of CDs are $5 per copy.

As always, interested couples should contact me with their needs and I will work with them to see what best suits their budget.

Why Boudoir?

Boudoir can be intimidating for many reasons; personal image issues with your weight or confidence, the fear that somebody would find the photos or that they will be plastered all over the internet to ruin your reputation, or the misconception that boudoir requires you to be pornographic in some way. Perhaps there is even the feeling that when you hand the finished product to your special somebody that they will be unhappy about the results, or angry that you allowed another person to see you in such an intimate way.

After hearing stories from many of my clients on how this was a huge step outside their comfort zone or how getting their photos back gave them a chance to really see how beautiful they are inside and out, I wanted to share their stories to let you all in on the not-so-secret.

Pamela

A few weeks ago I shared the story of my best friend and her boudoir shoot. She and I were college roommates and have similarly aged toddlers. She is a wonderful person and has a glowing smile, but really never has the chance to shine anymore between her work as a nurse and her work as a mom. I am so pleased she took the time to share her thoughts as her shoot has some of my favorite classic poses.

"Being a mom has given me a very different image of myself an sometimes it overtakes who I feel I am as an individual. For me boudoir was a reminder of that person I am and have always been. It's a way of showing myself I'm not just a mom I'm still woman and that is something to celebrate. It's fun and it's probably outside of a lot of woman's comfort zones (mine included) but the images afterward are incredible it gives you a glimpse of what others see in you not just the physical features."

Tanya

A stay-at-home mother of two that once had some serious self esteem and body image issues, she has had a long road to get to the confident and outspoken woman we see today. I feel blessed to help show off her big, beautiful smile in this surprise sitting done while her husband was out at work. This survivor of a truly unpleasant past is an inspiration for being so confident no matter what her detractors try to say.

"I feel it isn't so much about the modeling as it is about how the woman feels in their own skin. the fact that I have posed for pictures of this fashion says a lot of how I portray myself in my own eyes. Do I have some problem areas that need to be worked on? sure I do! do I have areas that I wish would never see the light of the sun and curse the eyes of others? maybe... but I am who I am, not one single person is going to change that and the ability to be photographed and show that personality, MY personality and my soul and inner being shines through. when I look at any and all pictures taken of me not only do I see body and soul and personality, I also see growth, as a person, and I also see the growth of the photographer. "

Charity

Charity has been featured here on our blog a few times and writes her own thoughts on working as a model in boudoir, fashion and fetish. She is always a pleasure to work with and talk to about many things. I often call Charity when it is time to do a study on poses or for a chance to practice with an experienced and flexible model before working with a client. She is happy to give feedback and honest opinions without overly praising or dragging out a negative when having a bad day. For this reason I respect her thoughts on boudoir as an art form and as a model.

"Boudoir shots for me are all about the setting and the mood. These shots are based on the concept of a lady’s “sitting room” where she would entertain visitors and lovers. They can include nudity and implied nudity but in essence nudity and being scantily clad is not a requirement. Boudoir for me typically uses lingerie and lighting. They can involve props and gloves as well as full body or just an arm."

Writing this and speaking to these ladies has given me the final push to put aside my own insecurities about my health troubles and lingering baby weight. In the coming weeks I will be planning and posing for a new boudoir shoot of my very own. I plan to share some inside images of the process and the results in an up coming blog later in June.

Thank you to every one of my brave and beautiful ladies for sharing this experience with the world. I hope they can inspire you to be brave and believe in your own beauty!  If you are located in the New Hampshire or southern Maine area and would like to book your own boudoir session, please contact our studio for more details.